Music..

For me music is 'my energy' in a sense, it picks me up when im down, and in a way it lets me be something or portray a different character. when i really 'get into' a song, i feel the emotion and energy the artist felt when they were recording the song, even though i wasnt there. a song that i feel strongly for, is called 'X-Factor' by Lauryn Hill. at first when i heard the song, my bestfriend was playing it in the car, it was a 'love' type of song i guess you could say but it talked about the problems within the relationship so i guess thats why she liked it and i didnt. never hearing the song before, when it was over i loved it. i couldnt understand why at the time, or even did i understand why when i actually thought i did. sounds crazy right. well i was in a relationship and the whole thing was rocky to sasy the least, good thing it wasnt a serious one lol. but then i heard the song again...and i started liking it. i related that song to my experience with that relationship. thats when i thought i knew why i liked the song. i was wrong. now i know why. although the song talked about the negative things in that persons relationship, the song itself was 'beautiful' and i couldnt let the horrible experience i had ruin that song. i like the song now becasue of how it makes me feel and not because i relate to the words. the beat is very 'melodic' and 'flowing', and lauryns voice carries on throughout the whole thing, and i feel like shes reaching out to me, telling me her story. when i listen to the song (or the beat) to say the least i think about a strong black woman wearing white, glowing, graciously walking the sandy beach, in the hot weather with the tide coming in to shore. being strong and letting go of her fears and problems. not to let them overcome her. in the video lauryns hair is very 'naturally' styled, and she walks with her head up regardless of er situation to show that she is strong. you can see the emotion in her facial expressions as she sings and that helps to convey the song to me. i no longer listen to the song and think about my past but i think about the beauty in the song, the life lauryn gave it as the words fell from her tongue